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[Jul. 1st, 2008|12:45 am] |
"This is not the end - i don't know how i know, i just do."
For once i know i am right, i am being proved even more so with every day that passes. Some things are just meant to be, and this is one of them things. ♥ |
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[Jan. 28th, 2008|11:39 am] |
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limewire, walking on "auto-pilot", family guy, the last people awake, mosh pits, raving and over the top dancing, wrecked ramblings, day-trips, my second family and the 'wavelength' we're all on, stupid photo's, inexplicable good moods, staying up all weekend, festival excitement, a sky full of stars… and being able to see every single one!, my big fat coat, bright hair, getting lost in conversation, jenga world cup, staying in bed all day, crash bandicoot on ps1, "sex,drugs & rock n roll", stealing johns clothes, going 'ott' on nights out, home-made cd's, getting the giggles, subliminal advertising, big eyes and wearing too much makeup around them, 'wind-milling', johns face, guitar hero, human buckaroo, pay day, looong summer days, warm summer nights, sweets, 'you had to be there' moments, wii sports, love:) |
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[Jul. 28th, 2007|11:01 am] |
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I wish there could be some sort of sign telling you which direction to choose. It's hard to do the right thing when you don't have a clue what the right thing is. |
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[Jul. 13th, 2007|10:40 pm] |
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half ten at night and eleanor is crying and shaking in my arms...
why can't they realise the mistakes they made with me and make it right for her?
one of the most painful things is watching my baby sister hurt like i did and not being able to do anything about it. |
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[May. 29th, 2007|07:08 pm] |
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i am the worst friend imaginable. |
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[May. 26th, 2007|03:53 pm] |
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No matter how perfect u believe something to be, look deeper and you will find that it rarely is… |
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[Apr. 10th, 2007|01:26 pm] |
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when you think you are special to someone you will always get proved wrong and your heart will drop when you realise youre just the same as everyone else, and you'l remind yourself for yet another time- why did you think any differently anyway? |
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[Mar. 26th, 2007|05:05 pm] |
Since coming home from my holiday i have realised a lot.At the risk of sounding like a bit of a twat, i feel like that week brought me part way to "finding myself" or where i belong. I now know what i want and exactly what i have to do to get there, and im more determined than ever not to let anyone get in the way of that.
Being away from home and doing something i truly loved gave me the answer to the question i've never been able to answer before- what is at the centre of my problems? I can see now that a combination of the place i live and the people i surround myself with are the reason i feel so bloody crap most of the time.
Being away from a few individuals helped me to see them in a new light and not always for worse. Sitting at the top of the mountain in dead silence with the sun shining on my face and nothing but white surrounding me i just THOUGHT. About every single thing that had been building up in my mind. It was such a big relief, to be completely alone in my own company, in such a beautiful and untouched part of the world. It's undescribable.
In my eyes, I've come back a more balanced person. Maybe it's just the hope that i won't have deal with being here for much longer , the fact that my ambition to get away is now ten times stronger, or simply because i've had a well needed break.
Someone said something to me yesterday. "Why be friends with someone that makes you unhappy?" . And although it sounds like the most simple of statements, once id thought about it, it becomes so apparent- why surround myself with people who make me feel anything less than my best? |
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[Feb. 9th, 2007|08:24 pm] |
im worthless to you
and the reason it hurts so much is because i used to be everything and now im nothing. |
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[Apr. 26th, 2006|12:29 pm] |
...If you had one shot, or one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted - one moment
Would you capture it or just let it slip? |
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[Apr. 25th, 2006|02:17 pm] |
i sat in the pub at 12.30 today and thought. what has my life come to?
if i didnt enjoy being drunk so much i might actually be depressed about it. |
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[Feb. 21st, 2006|05:29 pm] |
This is everything you know, goodbye.
Take my hand. Here it is.
I will go. I'll be with you.
I will go. I'll stay with you.
See these scars?
They're for remembering.
Priceless mistakes will steal everything.
Who will be your voice?
Who will hear your cries?
Looking back I now know what makes us break.
Fear of all things you don't understand.
Remind me, this numbing has made me see.
Remind me, this numbing has let me sleep.
Remind me now.
Looking back I can see I don't know anything.
I just feel numb.
I just feel numb. |
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[Feb. 4th, 2006|08:14 pm] |
Just like I predicted, We're at the point of no return
We can go backwards, and no corners have been turned.
I can't control it, if I sink or if I swim
'cause I chose the water that I'm in.
And it makes no difference who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this
'Cause there's only one thing I want
If it's not what you're made of
You're not what I'm looking for
You were willing, but unable to give me any more
There's no way, You're changing, cause somethings will just never be mine,
You're not in love this time ... but it's allright.
I hear you talking, but your words don't mean a thing.
I doubt you ever put your heart♥ into anything.
It's not much to ask for, to get back what I put in,
But I chose the waters that I'm in.
And it makes no difference who is right or wrong
I deserve much more than this
'Cause there's only one thing I want |
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